moody night...

15min ago..my mood had a sudden changed...it will b a bitter night again...
if i din viewed tat,shud i feel better?
once again,i question myself,wat the hell i wan actually....?
be myself,don force myself?
the actual me,hou fa fa? or never talk nonsense(go bak to form1,2,3 times?)?
let's don talk crap tml onward,serious...